Surviving on the Streets

The interviewee describes some of the tricks and tactics he had for surviving away from home as a young man.

Addiction in Family

The interviewee describes the death of a family member from addiction and how that influenced his sobriety.

Losing Love in Prison

The interviewee describes two women he loved, how those relationships ended with prison, his crime and the early period of his incarceration.

Segregation in Schools

The interviewee describes growing up in the South in a segregated school system and having to leave school early to support his family.

Surviving the Klan

The interviewee describes an attempted abduction by a white man in the Jim Crow south and his desire to move away.

Disabled In Prison

The interviewee discusses how he acquired permanent disabilities in prison due to medical negligence.

Should’ve Been Released in 1983

The interviewee describes how he believes the justice system is corrupt.

The Killing Fields

The interviewee describes the extreme levels of violence and racism in San Quentin.

“How Did it Come to This”

The interviewee discusses how difficult the trial process and period was and his refusal to take a deal.

Three Assaults in the First Year

The interviewee discusses some of the violence and threats of violence he experienced moving from juvi to adult prison.

Legal Failures as Juvenile

The interviewee describes how he was not allowed to be tried as a juvenile and that his lawyers repeatedly waived his right to a speedy trial.

“Dangerous Contraband”

The interviewee describes how the cards were always stacked against him in prison even when he was doing things right.

Respect I’m a Lifer

The interviewee discusses how he learned to deal with the violence in prison.

County Time

The interviewee describes his first time in county jail as a young person.

My Mind’s Not Right

The interviewee describes how he felt he couldn’t fully understand his trial experience.

Didn’t Click

The interviewee discusses how it took him a while to understand how serious his crime was and how many people he hurt.

My Biggest Regret

The interviewee discusses the emotions he feels about his life sentence crime.

I Should Have Called 911

The interviewee describes his internal struggle to understand what to do after stumbling upon a crime scene.

Worst Decision of My Life

The interviewee discusses how he was convicted of felony murder for being a look out.

“Can’t Just Run Over”

The interviewee discusses some of the challenges of living in highly race segregated prisons.

Juvenile Hall at 12

The interviewee discusses his first time being locked up as a 12 year old and how scary that is.

We Ain’t Supposed to Show Emotion

The interviewee discusses some of his challenges and successes around learning to feel and show his emotions again.

Losing Friends

The interviewee describes how he lost friends after quitting smoking in prison.

Afraid All the Time

The interviewee describes the constant undertone of violence in prison.

“Leave Me Alone”

The interviewee describes his experiences in solitary confinement and some of the reasons he ended up there.

Circumscribed Options

The interviewee describes how is life is limited in the reentry process.

Blind Spots

The interviewee describes establishing status in prison and not getting caught.

What They Don't Tolerate

The interviewee describes some of the codes and rules of prison.

Teen Runaway Education

The interviewee describes making "easy money" when he was a teen runaway.

Isolation When Running Away

The interviewee talks about how he isolated himself from everyone after running away from home.

God Wouldn't Help Me

The interviewee describes his trial experience and they heavy weight and stress of it all.

Good Chrono in Jeopardy

The interviewee describes a conflict with one of his program leaders that may have interfered with him gaining a “chrono” from her.

Trial was a Farce

The interviewee talks about how he was failed because his attorneys did not fight for him and that's how they system works for Black people.

Take Care of Own Safety

The interviewee describes how they could only count on themselves to police and check themselves because the guards ignored everything.

Getting Jumped in the Gang with 13 Girls

Interviewee describes the process of joining a gang in her hometown and how she was very badly beaten in order to join the gang.

It Wears On You

The interviewee talks about how he saw gates and bars everywhere, which affected him and everyone else, and how the community has been taken away from Black people.

"No Law They Would Not Break"

The interviewee describes his difficult childhood as a child surrounded by neglect, addictions, and a toxic environment.

Witnessing Suicide

Interviewee shares his turning point in prison. Witnessing other individuals who were incarcerated taking their own lives he chose to make life changes that supported his recovery.

"Your Soul Becomes Calcified"

The interviewee describes how vital it was to build a social network in prison, but still having to become emotionally numb to survive.

COVID Conditions

Interviewee describes COVID conditions in the prison and how he adjusted to life in a pandemic after getting released.

Needing Support

The interviewee explains why he believes his life took a turn for the worse after being on his own.

God Hates Me

The interviewee recalls his girlfriend cheating on him with his best friend shortly after the passing of his stepfather.

Only Male Figure in My Life

Interviewee shares about his experience losing his grandfather at a young age.

Fatherhood Challenges

The interviewee talks about how he recently got back in touch with his son and their relationship.

My Fate Was to Die in Prison

The interviewee describes the fear he felt going into prison and the sorrow he felt having to leave his family. He describes what things were like in prison.

Tehachapi

The interviewee describes how a newly designed prison differs from older facilities, including how the guards had control over everything.

County Jail is Scary

Interviewee discusses his first time in prison and his experience in county jail.

I Was Still a Kid

Interviewee recounts the acceptance he felt from being in a gang and how his main job within the gang had him in survival mode.

My Shame

The interviewee describes his battle against alcoholism and the events that lead up to his life crime.

Proto-Meth

The interviewee describes becoming an meth addict in his teen years.

Employment Frustration

The interview describes some frustration at losing his job and how he is coping with it.

Post-Prison PTSD

The interviewee discusses experiencing PTSD symptoms after his decades in prison.

Stress and Medical Failures

The interviewee describes some of his mental health challenges inside including addiction to cope with stress and the over-medication he received from the medical department.

Challenges in Reentry: Limitations of Some Reentry Programs

The interviewee discusses how his transitional housing failed to help him in key areas, especially as someone who is undocumented.

“I Didn’t Want to Look Week”

The interviewee describes his crime of commitment for his life sentence.

Child of Immigrants

The interviewee discusses some of the struggles he faced in the United States being a child of immigrants. His parents had to work multiple jobs and were rarely home.

Reentry Employment Challenges

The interviewee describes some of difficulties of finding a job after decades spent in prison, including how difficult it is to put prison jobs on a resume.

Experience with ICE

The interviewee describes his experience being taken into ICE detention after his parole from state prison.

Entering Prison at 21

The interviewee describes the numbness and fear he felt after receiving a life sentence and entering prison for the first time at a young age.

Deportation Fears

The interviewee discusses his fears and concerns about the possibility of deportation, including leaving his family and friends to an unknown place.

Toes Turned Black

The interviewee describes the lack of proper medical care he received in prison and how it affected his physical and mental health.

Too Much to Bear

The interviewee describes some of his challenges around turning his life around on the inside, the loss of his family members, and not receiving proper mental health care.